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Looking out onto the world
I wonder if they see me
Looking down on them from way up here
The sound of almost silent traffic
There is nothing as peaceful as the cold breeze on my face
A tear that feels ice cold, slides down my cheek
Will they ever understand, that I’m not the girl they see everyday?
I’m a fake, a fraud, and that’s all I'll ever be
You do not know me, so don’t ever think you do
It doesn’t matter how close you think you are
Because you’re not close to me, you’re close to the person I pretend to be
I’m sorry to have to tell you this, I’m sorry to have to let you know
But you will never truly know this person you call your friend
I can’t do it, I can’t let her out, the real girl's trapped inside this body
The truth is - All she wants to do is get out
Please, listen to the lyrics of this song if you haven't heard them before. xXx.
FEEL ME WHEN I SCREAM THESE WORDS, I AM JUST A GIRL THAT HURTS...
THE THOUGHT OF ME MAKES YOU SO SICK THERE'S NOTHING LEFT TO HATE...
I met him, I liked him, I loved him, I had him, I lost him, I miss him...</3
The worst way to miss someone, is to be sitting right beside them...knowing you can't have them.
I wish I was as invisible as you make me feel...
Maybe part of loving is learning to let go...
Hold Me Under, Cut Away This Empty, Hold Me Under...Change The Way I Feel About You...
Ask me why I keep on loving you when it's clear that you don't feel the same way for me... the problem is that as much as I can't force you to love me, I can't force myself to stop loving you.
I'm here without you, baby, but your still on my lonely mind...
Time will make you forget me but time will make me love you more than before.
Time will make you forget me but time will make me love you more than before.
My heart longs for you; my soul dies for you,
My eyes cry for you, my empty arms reach out for you.
I’m going to smile and make you think I’m happy; I’m going to laugh, so you don’t see me cry.
I’m going to let you go in style, and even if it kills me- I’m going to smile.
Forget the times he walked by, Forget the times he made you cry,
Forget the times he spoke your name, Remember now your not the same.
Forget the times he held your hand, Forget the sweet things if you can,
Forget the times & don’t pretend, Remember he's just your friend...</3
Have you ever wanted someone, you just couldn't have? </3
Our first kiss spoke a thousand words, our last broke my heart...
I never stopped loving you, i just stopped letting it show...
You look at me and say "Wow, she is the one that got away"....I look at you and say "Your the one that let me go"...
Who do you turn to when the only person who can stop your crying is the one who made you cry?
You stole my heart, ripped it out, and smashed it infront of my eyes, and I just smiled.
There are songs that actually make me cry when I listen to them, to name three - Creep by Radiohead, A Quitter by Rasputina, and Welcome To My Life by Simple Plan. The lyrics to the last song I mentioned are below and the video is at the top of the page - please click play :)
Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you
Do you ever wanna run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming
No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more?
Before your life is over
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With their big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding
No one ever lied straight to your face
And no one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy but I'm not gonna be okay
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
You never had to work it was always there
You don't know what it's like, what it's like
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like (what it's like)
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life
